Have you ever played a video game where you have to sleep to recover? They only let you do it if everything is safe. Otherwise they won’t let you sleep. You’ll get a message, saying “You cannot sleep now, there are monsters nearby.”
Now, remember the last time you just couldn’t get to sleep?
Too good to be true, I worried, when first hearing about a spiritual successor to the Banjo-Kazooie series that was to be made by former Rare staffers. “Mingy Jongo.” Perhaps that name still rests in your memory. I had forgotten the project was happening, and that’s for the best, unfortunately.
News of the game’s demise came out of an Ask Me Anything with Banjo-Kazooie composer Grant Kirkhope over the weekend. “The other guys actually had a secret meeting in a pub near Rare and we even got as far as having a character drawn up and a demo level type thing but it all fell to bits …. everyone’s got other jobs etc,” wrote Kirkhope.
Well, shoot. Plenty of games don’t come to fruition and I can’t say I’m shocked to hear that this one is among them, but it’s nonetheless disappointing news. Guess I’ll just continue replaying Banjo’s N64 adventures to get my fix. Not a terrible fate, mind you. Love ‘em.
To all Tegatards who miss our Streams, who miss our group chats, I am putting together a little project, that hopefully will cover both bases.
I have set up a group account for Livestream, and I have started a sideblog to act as ‘programming guide’ Any of you interested in a return to the days of constant streams and chats, feel free to message me. The more people interested, the more we can fill up a schedule, the sooner we can get the ball rolling.
Think of it as (more or less) developing a TV channel, that we can jointly host, with predetermined timeslots (with plenty of leeway for timeshifting, if need be).
I know I am not the only one who misses the streams, what do tyhe lot of you think?
For convenience sake, time schedules (when worked out) will be posted to this blog over here, future updates will also first be posted over there, after a few notifications here.
I will reblog/repost this later on, as a reminder.
Reblogging because it was pretty friggin late when I first reblogged. Another notice will be blogged on non-Easter.
I just wanted to let everyone know that Tabletop Simulator is amazing when you have a bunch of friends to play it with and everyone should totally get it.
Last night my Stream group played Cards Against Humanity and the night before Sonic the Hedgehog Monopoly and we’ve been looking into more custom games to play and it’s making me want to design game boards for us to screw around in.
They’re a bunch of shits. No one should put with that. If you casually wear tank tops, I worry that suddenly not wearing them will send a message that they can control you. Bad past bully experience here. : (
but last night i had a rather long, and admittedly very emotional, conversation with my fiance about life goals and dreams and vision and i dunno. it felt really good to talk about, and cry about, because these are very serious emotions that have been ravaging my brain and triggering my anxiety for a few years now.
so, id like to share these thoughts with you too. maybe you can help or you feel the same.
ive wanted to be an artist since i can even remember. ive always wanted to make stories and characters to share with people. i knew i wanted this to be my career and future FOREVER! i worked so hard in school, probably too hard, and i achieved SO MUCH that it seemed like not accomplishing my goal would be ridiculous!
but i didnt. rejection after rejection. feeling insecure suddenly about my art. watching so many other people fail as well. people who were BETTER than me. people who tried HARDER.
i numbed this phobia and sadness with the internet. getting attention for fanart while i had to take coffee shop jobs to pay for the ridiculously expensive education that was supposed to help me. but at least i was drawing. i was miserable, but drawing.
then i moved here to japan, where i had no computer for a year and became even more unaware as to how i would ever succeed at being an artist. life changed because i was constantly outside, i made friends who werent artists. i lost weight, became vegan, got engaged. im really happy! i have achieved so much!
but still, when i leave japan, i will have to go back to working in coffee shops. being useless. never being an artist.
i just dont know what to do.
i know i need to draw more. work harder, try harder. i know exactly what i HAVE to do! but i just cant do it. i dont know why. i dont understand whats happened to me, why ive lost all my passion and drive. its so difficult to explain and i just cant seem to fix it.