They’re a bunch of shits. No one should put with that. If you casually wear tank tops, I worry that suddenly not wearing them will send a message that they can control you. Bad past bully experience here. : (
A Tibetan Monk blesses the deer that gather around him and someone snaps a picture. Upon viewing the picture they notice a rainbow had appeared.
pretty sure this is the happiest picture I’ve seen in a long time
but last night i had a rather long, and admittedly very emotional, conversation with my fiance about life goals and dreams and vision and i dunno. it felt really good to talk about, and cry about, because these are very serious emotions that have been ravaging my brain and triggering my anxiety for a few years now.
so, id like to share these thoughts with you too. maybe you can help or you feel the same.
ive wanted to be an artist since i can even remember. ive always wanted to make stories and characters to share with people. i knew i wanted this to be my career and future FOREVER! i worked so hard in school, probably too hard, and i achieved SO MUCH that it seemed like not accomplishing my goal would be ridiculous!
but i didnt. rejection after rejection. feeling insecure suddenly about my art. watching so many other people fail as well. people who were BETTER than me. people who tried HARDER.
i numbed this phobia and sadness with the internet. getting attention for fanart while i had to take coffee shop jobs to pay for the ridiculously expensive education that was supposed to help me. but at least i was drawing. i was miserable, but drawing.
then i moved here to japan, where i had no computer for a year and became even more unaware as to how i would ever succeed at being an artist. life changed because i was constantly outside, i made friends who werent artists. i lost weight, became vegan, got engaged. im really happy! i have achieved so much!
but still, when i leave japan, i will have to go back to working in coffee shops. being useless. never being an artist.
i just dont know what to do.
i know i need to draw more. work harder, try harder. i know exactly what i HAVE to do! but i just cant do it. i dont know why. i dont understand whats happened to me, why ive lost all my passion and drive. its so difficult to explain and i just cant seem to fix it.
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Our old acquaintance http://www.furaffinity.net/user/catonthecouch/ once again off the couch and once again soon to regret it.